Oct 30, 2009

I'm not asking for much

If you know me, love me and respect me, please give me 5 minutes of your life.

Oct 23, 2009

Samba de Janeiro

Today is Dominik's mother's 60th birthday. Since my mom and she are friends, mom decided to surprise her.
She made reservations in this brazilian restaurant where they have live music and brazilian dancers.

It was Jürgen, Mom, Christina, Domi's Dad, Domi's Mom, Dominik and I.
We all decided to go for the all you can eat, 9 types of different grilled meat. Except Mr. Dominik, who STILL thinks vegetarianism is the way to go.
Whatev. What's special about the restaurant is, that they are almost as many employees as guests there. OK, maybe I exagerate a bit, but there was a lot of them. Like every 2 minutes they came with, rice, beans, broccolli, potatoes, mushrooms, carrots, they had even personell for the different sauces... funny :)

well, it works like this. The waiters come in with big portions of grilled meat and slice it right on your plate. Then the next guy comes with beef, then the other one with filet mignon etc etc

then suddenly we heard loud music coming out of the speakers and it was the "happy birthday" song. And it turned out 4 people were having their birthday party in this restaurant tonight.
After that, brazilian samba music was playing and two female dancers came out and started to put on a show. They were almost naked and only wore a bra and a thong and some feathers on their heads.
And they started to animate people to dance with them.

And guess who got up and danced?
Dominik. Is there a dance he doesn't know?
He was dancing Samba with them. Yes with the booty shaking and all. It was delicious :)

After we all were finished eating and before the dessert, Domi and I got up and went to the car to get our joint present for his mom.
It is a set of 4 canvasses and a lot of brushes and colors for her to paint.

She was very happy and she had a few tears in the corner of her eyes :)

That was a great night and I am so full and worn out and happy right now.. DOMI IS BACK :o) yaaaaay

We decided, since they came back from their holidays today, to spend the night each on our own but I'll be at his house first thing tomorrow. We have a lot to catch up to :P

Oct 21, 2009

Answers

Found these questions on Steve's blog and thought I give it a go. His was interesting to read. Don't know what you'll think of mine.

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
my magic wand, because the water isn't that hot yet

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
grey

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Dominik? OH YES!

4. Do you plan outfits every day?.
No, I grab the first thing that is reachable. Sometimes it's like picking up something from the carpet, smell it and if it's still ok, I wear it.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
content. I have a bottle of VITAMALZ here and it's icecold and I just watched an episode of desperate housewives.

6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
the towel I dried my hair with this morning

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I think hard, but I really can't remember. Sometimes it's so realistic that I can't tell if I dreamt something or if it really happened to me.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Yes I did. His name is Kevin and he's the new intern at mom's agency..

9. What are you craving right now?
Dominik's hug - he's at the north sea with his parents at their beach house.

10. Do you floss?
I use mouthwash.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
sex

12. Are you emotional?
yes, overly emotional. I'm trying to control it though and be more careless.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
When I was doing situpsand pushups, I used to count them. Best was 1800 situps in one week.. I'm not doing it anymore.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Hellooooo I'm gay. I'd never bite into it.

15. Do you like your hair?
no. not if I compare it to Dominik's hair. I used to have long hair when I was 13/14.

16. Do you like yourself?
Yes, I'm very much in love with myself. I mean, come on... who wouldn't tap this? :p ;o)

17. Would you go out to eat with George Bush?
The question is: would he survive?

18. What are you listening to right now?
"Still got the blues for you" by Gary Moore (it's on the radio)

19. Are your parents strict?
No, mom is fairly reasonable when it comes to rules and stuff. It's good to have an older sister, because she already fought all the fights for me. All I gotta do is say "but Christina was allowed to when she was my age" :p

20. Would you go sky diving?
No. I have a fear of heights

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yes. Sometimes I eat it plain with a spoon.

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Well, yes, a few, since mom is in advertising and stuff and her company also organises events.

23. Do you rent movies often?
if "rent" means torrenting, then yes

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
a shiny silver air balloon with the words "happy 16th". It's out of air though

25. How many countries have you visited?
lots, USA, Germany, England, Belgium, Netherlands, Luxembourg, France, Czech Republic and Dubai

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
yeah, last month was the latest

27. Ever been on a train?
Yes. Is this a serious question? who hasn't?

28. Brown or white eggs?
White. I'm racist. No, really, is there a difference? I never cared.

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
who came up with these questions? OF COURSE.

30. Do you use chap stick?
yes, twice a day

31. Do you own a gun?
No, I don't live in the USA. Wait, asking for trains, cell phones and now guns... I think the creator of this survey is American.

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Yes. it's easy.

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My hand.

34. Are you too forgiving?
No, I'm not. Maybe after a long time I forgive, but I never forget. I should work on this.

35. Ever been in love?
this whole blog is about love. yes I have.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Probably miss me as much as I miss him.

37. Ever have cream puffs?
what are cream puffs?

38. Last time you cried?
A while back when I was talking to a friend on skype. I was moody the whole day and he was being very understanding and caring, so I opened up and started crying told him I miss my dad.

39. What was the last question you asked?
"what are cream puffs?"

40. Favorite time of the year?
summer vacation and December (Birthday and Christmas gifts. I love getting stuff, ok? ok!)

41. Do you have any tattoos?
No, I hate them.

42. Are you sarcastic?
Are you for real?

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Heard of it, but never seen. It's with Kutcher, right?

44.Ever walked into a wall?
no, but I've walked into a traffic pole. I remember that pain very well.

45. Favorite color?
black & blue

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
yes, last time I even slapped someone with a closed fist. not proud of it.

47. Is your hair curly?
no

48. What was the last CD you bought?
The Complete Discography of "Bright Eyes". I "bought" it off the internet.

49. Do looks matter?
Yes, but really, believe me, I met one or two people who I've been with just based on looks and they had no brains, I swear. After a while it gets boring. It's like, you just go to them for sex and then you catch yourself leaving very fast. Because you are sick of hearing about how the earth is flat.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Well it depends, Domi and I talked about this. I have no problem with him being with a girl. He knows that but he hasn't felt the need to be with one. I guess I'm the better lover.
Wait, I just thought of something. Wouldn't it actuallybe my own fault if someone would cheat on me, because I would have failed to give them what they needed?

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
I don't know, I'm on my mom's company plan. But I do have unlimited free calls to landlines and within the network of my service provider and I pretty much stick to that and don't call people on other networks.

52. Do you like your life right now?
yes, yes and yes

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
yes, except in my case it's the computer. I hardly watch German TV and usually I make a playlist of a few episodes of my favorite sitcoms and set it to "shut down after finishing"

54. Can you handle the truth?
Sure

55. Do you have good vision?
yes, no, maybe. how would I know? I don't wear glasses...

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
yes, I do

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Too much. when I'm not on the phone, I talk to people on skype. I'm very communicative

58. The last person you held hands with?
Dominik, the cutest creature on god's green earth

59. What are you wearing?
I'm about to go to bed, so, erm... does my blanket count?

60.What is your favorite animal?
I like dogs, never had one but I like them a lot. And Elephants. I love elephants. Also never had one :P


61. Where was your default picture taken at?
I don't know which one I use right now. But one is on a bench at a basketball court, the other one is on a massaging chair in a mall and one is on top of some building in NYC

62. Can you hula hoop?
hula hooping is the act of thrusting your hip back and for, right? I think I'd be an expert in hula hooping.;o)

63. Do you have a job?
Only one that gets paid with kisses, hugs and love. I do the computer maintenance for mom's agency.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
a bottle of VITAMALZ

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
I didn't, but Dominik did when he came over to my house at 5am a few months ago. He didn't want to wake my mom and called me on the phone but I was asleep and my phone was set to mute. I remember mom woke me up and said "Domi is outside, he's throwing things at your window. Get up and let him in. I go back to bed. Tell him I said hi."

Oct 15, 2009

beautiful soul

Oct 10, 2009

I'm a bit embarassed

and there's the reason. the reason is right there in the title.
How do you spell embarassed? is it with two s or two r? is it ember... or embar...?

I feel bad. I'm also a bit mad at myself.
I don't speak English that well, I don't speak German that well and I for sure don't speak French and Spanish that well, despite the fact that I have classes in school for all languages.

See, it's not that I don't speak very well. My teachers always compliment my pronounciation in German or Spanish or French. But it's the lack of words.
I've left the states when I was 12. I've been living in Germany before, for half a year, when I was 6 or 7.
So it is kind of not my fault. What 12 year old knows words that a 16 yeard old should know?
I sometimes fail to have a decent conversation with my friends from the states or NZ or the UK or Australia... well the people in Australia are hard to understand in general. Like they call their friends "mights" and mean mates. Whatever.

What I mean is, I feel a bit stupid not knowing certain words. I also feel stupid because I know them in German but not in English. Sometimes it's the other way around. I want to say something and I know the English word but can't use it and so I have to walk my way around it and use descriptive language to make myself understood. For me it's degrading because that's what little children do.

I feel inferior when I know that I have no reason at all to feel that way. I'm an intelligent enough guy and although I haven't read a lot of books, I do know a lot of characters of literature, writers and stories. I'm also very interested in politics and know a lot about the world and geography.
But it's... I don't know... it bothers me.

My friend Lucas wrote something to me two days ago. He wrote something like "please, try to speak English". And I know he didn't mean to hurt me and it actually didn't hurt me at all at that moment, but in hindsight I know exactly what he meant. It's bad when you can't make yourself clear.

Sometimes when I'm skyping to my friend Jake, I have to speak slowly to buy time... time to think hard about the right word I wanna use to say what I wanna say. And it's bad when you are trying to have a deep conversation and don't want to only scratch the surface and talk about superficial stuff and call everything "that's hot" like Paris Hilton.

aaaaaaaah, I'm frustrated.

PS: ignore any typos, it's fucking 6:30 on a Saturday morning. I have every right to misspell things at this time of the day.

Oct 9, 2009

Things Will Never Be The Same


Lay it down, pull my heart to the ground
Time's getting cold, now the leaves all turn hard and blue

And I know, when I gaze to the sun
No place to hide I got nowhere to run from you
Away from you

Hold me now, girl, I don't know when,
When we will ever meet again

That was then, baby this is now
I try to get over you

Losing you... things will never be the same
Can you hear me call your name?
If we changed it back again
Things would never be...

In your hand, babe, I don't understand
You've got the eyes of a child but you hurt like a man, always do
Always do

Touch me now, girl I don't know when,
When we will ever meet again
That was then, baby this is now
Time won't get over you

Losing you... things will never be the same
Can you hear me call your name?
If we changed it back again
Things would never be the same