May 18, 2011

Remember the Monkey?

A long and interesting drama free time passed when the monkey returned. This time actually trying to solve a problem it had. He asked me why I was being so mean to him lately. I forget my answer (and that's good that I'm forgetting things to do with him). Then he said "So it's all about you huh?". That got me really angry seeing how unconcerned he was of how I felt and what I ever did for him. I wanted to just say "Fuck off" and just turn off my phone, but I let him feel guilty of his indiffernce. Then he started talking to me like we were friends again. Not that I don't forgive him for his soulessness, but I refuse to occupy myself with him in any form. Luckily he sense the cold shoulder and stopped.

A few weeks later he reminded me that I had made a promise to help him with exams earlier, and I went. My intention was to be so preoccupied helping other that I couldn't help him much, but that failed. While he was reading, he told me he was horny and kept looking at me (realiously?). I just pretended that I didn't hear, because I was really not stupid enough to fall for that.

When another friend of mine David, came, I was so relieved. My attention was all on him (not just because I liked him). David had an exam the next day and I was free to help. The monkey left, then David left. Happy days were in sight once more.

The following Tuesday (last week Tuesday) I was at school talking to Jason (Jason's my 'neutral' friend who irritates me sometimes). Then we walked over to where he and some other friends were. Without looking at him I said "Mornin'", my usual phrase for morning greetings. He said hi. To help with schoolwork!

A few minutes afterwards Jason asks me where my phone was. Since I rarely receive any calls or texts I had it in my bag. He told me to check it. He sent me a message. The message that the monkey still liked me, but it came from Jason, apparently they were texting and he was afraid to text me directly.

I let out a raucous laugh like a pirate, I thought it was a joke. The monkey then asked me why with a smile on his face. I answered, but it wasn't what he wanted to hear. Then Jason sends "Seriously he does. You?" I said no.

All of this was happening amongst our straight homophobic guy friends (I attend an all boy's school). Then Jason calls me aside and says that the monkey wants to hear me say the words to him from my mouth. At that point I was surprised. I was thinking, "Why can't he just give up? He would've given up if it were any girl. Why do I have to bother with this?" I haven't heard from him since that day not have I seen him. I hope it stays that way and that he leaves me in peace.