Lately I've been watching a lot of Smallville and Barbie movies. I know that some people would say that Barbie is for young girls who can't grow up, but that would be because of what others have told them. When a situation or some words said get sentimental for me my body tingles. I know know why, but it's a good tingle. That tingle brings with it a feeling of truth. I feel that that piece of information is important to my being and will have some positive impact on me, so I make time to pay attention.
Those two shows have really been inspiring me to be myself and telling me that I am special. From about 8 Barbie movies so far, I've learnt that we are who we are for a reason. That reson is not going to change. We may not be able to make absolute sense of it now, but I'm sure some day we will.
I know that I'm not awkward in situations just because the world gets a twisted laugh at seeing me get nervous and fail. I'm awkward because I was born that way and I can accept that. The sooner I accept my faults the sooner I realize that they're my greatest assets. They set me apart from every other creature on this planet. There is no other awkward, black, young, gay, 17 year old Jamaican boy like me. There is not other like you.
Smallville = superpowers. I love the idea of having superpowers and doing things beyond human boundaries. I like the discharge of energy from my hand and the moving of objects by thought. So much so that I actually do those things in hope to get some effect (Some kid right). I'm proud to be a kid who still believes in the unexplained and the out-of-the-ordinary. I am proud to be who I am and to do what I do. By watching Smallvile I have realised that not only people with powers can be called heroes and change the world. Any human can, the bad thing is that it can be changed for the worse. We all have the choice to make the changes we make good or bad.
I believe that there are defining moments in someone's life where everything changes from one point on and causes a world of changes. That one second where someone decides that "this is the path I want to take". From then on there is no turning back or do over. The other options have been eliminated completely by that one choice. That one choice could mean a better future for those who were lost. I choose to look on the brighter side of these moments.
Although I'm not sure what I want to do with my life for now, I know I won't jepordize the future by smoking, robbing anywhere of committing any other crimes. I know somthing good is out there waiting for me to do. There are people I will help in the future and I look forward to meeting them and helping them however I can.