Jan 31, 2012

It's time - Part 1

For a long time I have been hesitating to talk about the new love in my life. For two reasons. The first reason is that I know that Dominik is reading my blog, in fact he has posted on here himself a while back. He was out of my life for a while and around my birthday in December we started talking and giving our friendship a chance. Since then I was just trying not to "rub it in" that I am happy with a new boy in my life, that I have moved on.


The second reason is, that this blog has so many memories of AWESOME times with Domi that I just found it very hard to bring in Greggy into this. It felt like "this is DomiNic's home". I didn't want him to feel like he is being compared to Domi or that he has to do the things Domi has done.


OMG, now that I am saying this I realize how stupid it sounds. But you know, guys... love isn't rational. Feelings aren't rational... So it's normal to think stupid things, I guess... I was just trying to be careful and not hurt anyone.


Now, after being with him for almost 4 months (on February 2nd it will be our fourmonthyversary), I know that he is assured enough that I only have feelings for him and that he means the world to me and that I am deeply deeply in love with him.


And I also know that enough time has passed (a whole year) to say that things have healed between Domi and me. That reading about Greggy will not hurt him.


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The boy that is the center of my love life is an angel that doesn't live in my country. I have met him on twitter. On May 7 2011 he started following me and just sent me a tweet asking to follow him back. Since I have enough straight guys in my offline life I wasn't interested in talking to straight guys on twitter, so my reply and first question was "are you gay?". haha I wasn't thinking really... later he told me that that weirded him out. His reply was "nope ..bisexual .. Why does this have to define ..(I am not English so my English is not perfect)"


After the first few tweets about Glee and how cute Chord Overstreet is, I found out that he was 15. His English was amazing for a 15 year old. I know that cos I am tutoring a 14 year old :) 
Anyways... we started talking more and more to each other. The topics had more depth and we talked about how you shouldn't trust people on the internet.


We became friends... I shared a lot of my thoughts with him about my breakup with Domi and what I was going through. Within a few months he had become someone I started to trust and someone I really liked. 
I was very interested in his culture... even started learning a bit of Slovene.
I used to do silly things like going to google translator and type whole tweets in there and have wacky translations which I tweeted to him.


Part 2 will follow soon

Jan 9, 2012

Our culture and politics vs. madness

The following text is part of a paper that my friend Jake from Wisconsin wrote. He had to interview someone from a different culture and he chose me. (For those who don't know, I'm 1/4 German and 3/4 American. I have the citizen-ships of both countries. I was born in LA California and currently live in Cologne/Germany.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Nic was very interested in having someone to speak to about his German heritage; he was convinced that German culture was very different in some ways from the way we live our lives in Wisconsin. He did in fact bring up several different places and ideas that had significance in moral, social, and technical ways.
One of the places we talked about was his school. He recently had graduated from “Gymnasium”, which is the advanced version of high school in German education system. I was surprised to hear him describe how the education system works: “Everyone is sent to different schools after 4th grade”. The teacher recommends one of three levels for the student to go on to based on their academic performance. They are “basic”, “mid-level”, and “advanced”, or “gymnasium”. Basic level students usually go into the work force while gymnasium students usually go to university for further education. When he asked me why I found that strange, I told him that I found it unusual that his culture was able to determine how a person will go through life based on their grades prior to and including grade 4. He agreed with me, and he noted that it is a contemporary argument to move the German educational system toward a less deterministic perspective. On the other hand, he offered his social critique of our educational system, and felt that even though his system was flawed, it was the better choice overall. “After all, even though not everyone goes to university [in Germany], those that do, do not have to go into so great debt- it is mostly paid for by the government”.
This conversation inevitably led to politics, which Nic was very interested in. He recently had watched the republican presidential debate and had been very confused by some of the antics of American politicians. One scene from the debate had stuck in his mind and he wanted to discuss it with me. A gay soldier, he said, had sent in a video question regarding LGBT rights in America. The audience had actually then boo’d the question before allowing the nominees to reply. He was shocked by this, and by (what he perceived as) the political platforms of Michele Bachmann and Rick Santorum that were avidly anti-gay. Living in Cologne, and being gay himself, Nic admitted to never having seen LGBT rights as a social issue. “We are not treated differently. We have [civil unions], and I have never been singled out for being gay.” When I brought up the idea that it would likely be very controversial for an “out” politician to gain prominence in our political system, he laughed at our ignorance. “What does that have to do with their politics? Our minister of foreign affairs (a position similar to secretary of state in the USA) is gay and out, and doing a good job.The mayor of Berlin was just re-elected for the 3rd time (each term is 5 years) and he is also gay and out. That they are gay is not brought up by our pundits. [The pundits] talk about real issues like debt, and what politician has the best plan; who cares if the politician is gay?” This, he felt, was a justifiable reason to feel morally and politically superior to the United States. “I know my politicians are good, and I know, [regardless] of their [political party], that they want to do good by me. We really trust our politicians.” 
The trust Nic had in his government was something new to me. I found his, and presumably Germany's moral/political stance refreshing. Unimpressed by our own attitudes toward sexuality and the way we treat it in America, his tone reflected a belief that his perspective was not just that of Germany's, but of a universal truth that cried out from inside each of us.<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

posted with Jake's permission