Oct 29, 2008
Oct 27, 2008
Oct 25, 2008
Apparently I talk in my sleep
ok folks, this is really creepy.
This morning during breakfast I was talking to mom and was really enjoying my slightly burned toast when my sister aka theEVILone got up from the table and looked at mom and whispered "ask him" before leaving the room.
I was like... what does she want now? because whenever my sister wants something from me she never asks me directly (maybe cause she knows the answer already) but goes to my mom and asks her to tell me.
So mom told me "nothing, she's crazy" which immediately put my alarmed mind at ease because FINALLY she was seeing it too, lol.
So we continued eating, listening to the morning radio show and had the occasional chats during the bad songs. But then it happened.
Just when I was finishing and was drinking the last drops of my tea mom asked me "So... what is Christchurch?"
I was shocked... how does she know about Christchurch... what does she know about Christchurch? And why is she asking ME about Christchurch.
I was really stunned there for a moment and asked her "why? what do you know?"
A thousand things rushed thorugh my mind. What if she knows about my youtube account, what if someone has recognized me and told her about my videos. But then I remembered that she had seen my "10 things I hate about you video" before it was uploaded to youtube.
"Not much, is there something you want to talk about?" she asked. And I was about to get up and run to my sisters room and jump at her throat when my mom continued... "... you want to talk about Joe and Kane?"
Now I was completely stunned and reacted very harsh "What about Joe? What do you mean? He's not with Kane anymore... TALK WOMAN TALK" lol... ok I did not say WOMAN to her...
It was a huge puzzle in my head and I couldn't put them to one piece. Granted, she may know about Joe, because I showed her my "10 things I hate about you" video. But how in gods name did she know about Kane?
"Mom, start talking... what do you know about him?"
In this moment she burst out laughing and this only made me more mad.
She told me that I was talking in my sleep. That when she came in to check on me last night I was mumbling.
She had great fun sitting next to my bed and TALKING TO ME WHILE I WAS ASLEEP.
She said that she told my sister and they both found it very very funny and that they started to interview me asking me all kinds of questions.
And it seems that I am also a foolish good-hearted person in my sleep as well. She explained to me that I mumbled stuff... that she couldn't understand me that well but she managed to understand a few things. She said that I was talking about how Christchurch is burning and that Joe is in danger and that I need to go get there. She said that I was very sweet being in real worries about Joe. And I must also have said something about Kane. She said that after she told me that the firefighters have already arrived, I stopped breathing heavily and went back to sleep and the last word I must have said was "Kane".
OK... so this sounds wierd in soooo many ways... first of all I was really really pissed at them because this is a huge invasion of my privacy and I am not done with letting them face the consequences yet... I havn't thought of ways to pay them back, yet.
Second... WHAT THE FUCK... I talk in my sleep. When did that happen?
Third: Joe? Fire? Christchurch? ... KANE? .... REALLY? Are you kidding me?
I can't even remember dreaming about Joe. I didn't... I am sure I didn't... and why the fire?
And why Kane?
So after sitting in front of my computer and telling you guys this story I came up with a few theories.
Joe... well... if the reason for mentioning him isn't obvious to you, then you shouldn't be here in the first place.
The Fire... I did watch Joe's video "New Zealand is burning" yesterday. Maybe my brain put one and one together.
Christchurch... well... I don't know... maybe because Joe lives there?
and KANE... hmmm... there is only one way I could explain this...
I used to watch the WWE shows about three years ago when I still lived in LA. And there was this one character called KANE. He is also nicknamed "The Big Red Machine" because he has this pyro fire thing going on... hmm... I should post a video here to make you understand...
hmm... the only explanation would be that my head put the name KANE and FIRE together and I might have dreamt about KANE setting Christchurch on fire...
I told you... CREEEEPY.
But I honestly can't remember dreaming of this.
Hmmm... summed up I'd say it was a real bad thing what happened to me yesterday. I wonder what else I talk about in my sleep.
PS: I don't think bad of Kane... Kane is a real nice guy judging by the few minutes I've seen of him on two or three videos.
This morning during breakfast I was talking to mom and was really enjoying my slightly burned toast when my sister aka theEVILone got up from the table and looked at mom and whispered "ask him" before leaving the room.
I was like... what does she want now? because whenever my sister wants something from me she never asks me directly (maybe cause she knows the answer already) but goes to my mom and asks her to tell me.
So mom told me "nothing, she's crazy" which immediately put my alarmed mind at ease because FINALLY she was seeing it too, lol.
So we continued eating, listening to the morning radio show and had the occasional chats during the bad songs. But then it happened.
Just when I was finishing and was drinking the last drops of my tea mom asked me "So... what is Christchurch?"
I was shocked... how does she know about Christchurch... what does she know about Christchurch? And why is she asking ME about Christchurch.
I was really stunned there for a moment and asked her "why? what do you know?"
A thousand things rushed thorugh my mind. What if she knows about my youtube account, what if someone has recognized me and told her about my videos. But then I remembered that she had seen my "10 things I hate about you video" before it was uploaded to youtube.
"Not much, is there something you want to talk about?" she asked. And I was about to get up and run to my sisters room and jump at her throat when my mom continued... "... you want to talk about Joe and Kane?"
Now I was completely stunned and reacted very harsh "What about Joe? What do you mean? He's not with Kane anymore... TALK WOMAN TALK" lol... ok I did not say WOMAN to her...
It was a huge puzzle in my head and I couldn't put them to one piece. Granted, she may know about Joe, because I showed her my "10 things I hate about you" video. But how in gods name did she know about Kane?
"Mom, start talking... what do you know about him?"
In this moment she burst out laughing and this only made me more mad.
She told me that I was talking in my sleep. That when she came in to check on me last night I was mumbling.
She had great fun sitting next to my bed and TALKING TO ME WHILE I WAS ASLEEP.
She said that she told my sister and they both found it very very funny and that they started to interview me asking me all kinds of questions.
And it seems that I am also a foolish good-hearted person in my sleep as well. She explained to me that I mumbled stuff... that she couldn't understand me that well but she managed to understand a few things. She said that I was talking about how Christchurch is burning and that Joe is in danger and that I need to go get there. She said that I was very sweet being in real worries about Joe. And I must also have said something about Kane. She said that after she told me that the firefighters have already arrived, I stopped breathing heavily and went back to sleep and the last word I must have said was "Kane".
OK... so this sounds wierd in soooo many ways... first of all I was really really pissed at them because this is a huge invasion of my privacy and I am not done with letting them face the consequences yet... I havn't thought of ways to pay them back, yet.
Second... WHAT THE FUCK... I talk in my sleep. When did that happen?
Third: Joe? Fire? Christchurch? ... KANE? .... REALLY? Are you kidding me?
I can't even remember dreaming about Joe. I didn't... I am sure I didn't... and why the fire?
And why Kane?
So after sitting in front of my computer and telling you guys this story I came up with a few theories.
Joe... well... if the reason for mentioning him isn't obvious to you, then you shouldn't be here in the first place.
The Fire... I did watch Joe's video "New Zealand is burning" yesterday. Maybe my brain put one and one together.
Christchurch... well... I don't know... maybe because Joe lives there?
and KANE... hmmm... there is only one way I could explain this...
I used to watch the WWE shows about three years ago when I still lived in LA. And there was this one character called KANE. He is also nicknamed "The Big Red Machine" because he has this pyro fire thing going on... hmm... I should post a video here to make you understand...
hmm... the only explanation would be that my head put the name KANE and FIRE together and I might have dreamt about KANE setting Christchurch on fire...
I told you... CREEEEPY.
But I honestly can't remember dreaming of this.
Hmmm... summed up I'd say it was a real bad thing what happened to me yesterday. I wonder what else I talk about in my sleep.
PS: I don't think bad of Kane... Kane is a real nice guy judging by the few minutes I've seen of him on two or three videos.
Oct 22, 2008
Just Hold Me My Almost Lover
Comfortable as I am - I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are - You count the days
But if I wanted silence - I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness - I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection - I'd audition
And if I didn't love you - You would know
And why can't you just hold me - And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken - And why do I still care - still care
You say you see the light now - At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter - I wish I didn't give you all
But if I wanted silence - I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness - I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection - I'd audition
And if I didn't love you - You would know
And why can't you just hold me - And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken - And why do I still care
Poor little misunderstood baby - No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him - I think I did have good days
Why(why) can't you just hold me - And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken - And why do I still care
Your fingertips across my skin - The palm trees swaying in the wind - Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies - The sweetest sadness in your eyes - Clever trick
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover - Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you - Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance - My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street - You took my hand and danced with me - Images
And when you left you kissed my lips - You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover - Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you - Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance - My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean - I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted - And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover - Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you - Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance - My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
Oct 18, 2008
Oct 16, 2008
(other people's) religion
I don't know for sure if I have a religion.
To have one means that a person has defined for himself what exactly religion means.
I don't like the idea of churches. For me it is like watching an older man in a dress, singing to a wall, drinking wine and constantly reminding me that I am a sinner and need to pray for forgivness, because god forgives everything.
Well that is not my idea of religion.
I see religious people who are overdoing this. They are real nutjobs who live by the bible.
A book written by the hand of other people who claim they have a connection to god.
I recently found a video on youtube called "I'm a God warrior" which clearly shows how far people go in the name of god.
you saw that? Pretty intense, hah? She scares the crap out of her children.
But still, I believe that it is wrong of us atheists (I use that word because I don't have a better one for a "non-believer") to judge people, who have faith based on these nutcases.
Religion is something really personal. It is a different form of love and appreciation.
And I think it would be wrong of me to judge people on who they love.
Be it christians, muslims, hindus or other religions.
Summed up to one word I'd say it's all about respect.
I respect them for having a religion and I wish them to respect me for not having one.
uh, yes... I guess I'm done for today. Sorry, no "I love you, Joe" today and no silly goofy jokes. I promise my next blog is gonna be all about "my god" TheJoeFrom1993 again.
Bye for now and keep on being nice to the people around you.
Nic
PS:
To have one means that a person has defined for himself what exactly religion means.
I don't like the idea of churches. For me it is like watching an older man in a dress, singing to a wall, drinking wine and constantly reminding me that I am a sinner and need to pray for forgivness, because god forgives everything.
Well that is not my idea of religion.
I see religious people who are overdoing this. They are real nutjobs who live by the bible.
A book written by the hand of other people who claim they have a connection to god.
I recently found a video on youtube called "I'm a God warrior" which clearly shows how far people go in the name of god.
you saw that? Pretty intense, hah? She scares the crap out of her children.
But still, I believe that it is wrong of us atheists (I use that word because I don't have a better one for a "non-believer") to judge people, who have faith based on these nutcases.
Religion is something really personal. It is a different form of love and appreciation.
And I think it would be wrong of me to judge people on who they love.
Be it christians, muslims, hindus or other religions.
Summed up to one word I'd say it's all about respect.
I respect them for having a religion and I wish them to respect me for not having one.
uh, yes... I guess I'm done for today. Sorry, no "I love you, Joe" today and no silly goofy jokes. I promise my next blog is gonna be all about "my god" TheJoeFrom1993 again.
Bye for now and keep on being nice to the people around you.
Nic
PS:
Oct 14, 2008
I would like to get some stuff off of my chest
Inspired by the blog of someone I like, I am going to talk about stuff that mostly are a matter of the heart.
I love someone I can't have. I can't have him because he's far far away.
I am not an idiot and not a fool... I am bright enough to know that this would never work.
But although I try very hard, I constanly fail to make my heart think the same way too.
I guess hearts don't think.
For those who don't know me, yet: My name's Nic. I'm going to be 16 soon and I live in Germany... Oh and the "BIG DEAL" about me is, I'm gay...
I am not shy... I have had quite a few "friends with benefits".
But for the first time in my life I am in love.
And it was a great feeling to say the words "I love you". Because I have never said that to another person before... besides family and stuff... but you know what I mean.
I am in love with Joe...
He is great.
wait... HE IS. PERIOD.
At the moment all I can do is send him goofy video-messages telling him that I love him.
I don't know if he knows how serious I am... because I also make fun of myself and my being in love with him. But this is the only way I can deal with it. If I would not use humor... I...
I guess I'd go insane.
sorry, I gotta go now...
will be back later today to continue.
bye for now
I love someone I can't have. I can't have him because he's far far away.
I am not an idiot and not a fool... I am bright enough to know that this would never work.
But although I try very hard, I constanly fail to make my heart think the same way too.
I guess hearts don't think.
For those who don't know me, yet: My name's Nic. I'm going to be 16 soon and I live in Germany... Oh and the "BIG DEAL" about me is, I'm gay...
I am not shy... I have had quite a few "friends with benefits".
But for the first time in my life I am in love.
And it was a great feeling to say the words "I love you". Because I have never said that to another person before... besides family and stuff... but you know what I mean.
I am in love with Joe...
He is great.
wait... HE IS. PERIOD.
At the moment all I can do is send him goofy video-messages telling him that I love him.
I don't know if he knows how serious I am... because I also make fun of myself and my being in love with him. But this is the only way I can deal with it. If I would not use humor... I...
I guess I'd go insane.
sorry, I gotta go now...
will be back later today to continue.
bye for now
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