Take a look at me now

you coming back to me
is against all odds
and that's what I've got to face



How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, oh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me, when all I can do is watch you leave
Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain, and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, cause there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now, cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around, turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you, so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, cause there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now, cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you, well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cause I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take

Just take a look at me now

Cougar much?

So I was at this perfume store called "Douglas" with my mom, right? There was this nice saleswoman in her early 40s. While mom was looking for cosmetics and an obvious gay effiminate guy with heavily smeared face was giving her samples and make up tips, that nice saleslady was showing me some new stuff from Gaultier and Joop!
She was very nice and she looked at me and said: "oh I know the perfect fragrance for you" and she took the bottle and first sprayed it on a piece of paper. Then she said "it's so much better when it gets in contact with your skin" and she touched my neck. Then she sprayed some of it on my neck and started rubbing it in. "you need to mix it with the smell of your own skin". Then she sniffed me and said, "yeees that smells good on you"

LOL  That lady was totally hitting on me until mom saw it from the other side and came over and said "my SIXTEEN YEAR OLD son already found his fragrance, thank you."

the look on her face was epic.

btw, I'm gonna be 17 in a week. just saying. :-p

Don't

the following is a poem from a friend of mine. Only someone who went through something like this can remotly understand what this poem is about and how beautiful it is in it's sadness.

Don’t
Dont look at me with pity, i need your strength
Dont crowd me with words, just let me talk
Dont touch me, i will reach out when im ready
Dont call me, i need time to think and work it through

Dont tell me how i should feel, feelings are beyond my control at this time

Dont stop my tears and screams, they are my path to release and healing
Dont cross the road to avoid me, just smile and say hello
Dont say you understand, just thank god that you cant
Dont be hurt by what i say or do, my pain is clouding my judgement
Dont think im going mad, im doing the best i can do to retain my sanity

Dont tell me i will forget, his memory is all i have left

and whatever you do

Dont think i dont appreciate you being here

taken from Duane's tumbler

No more tears left to cry

My tears run down like razorblades - And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say - Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights - I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over