Milestones in life

This is hard for me to write but I need to get it out

Hey, how are you? I hope you are fine.
I've been thinking about you the whole day.
There is stuff happening in my life I wish I could share with you.
It's been a while since the last time I talked to you.

I've been listening to this song over and over again. And there is one line that keeps haunting me since the first time I heard it. You know I'm trying my best to be half the man you were. So I want to ask you the same question I heard in that song. Are you proud of who I am?

I miss you, dad.

Last Friday I passed the test to my driver's license. You can imagine how happy I was when he handed me that little piece of paper. I mean, can you imagine that or did you actually see me? I hope you didn't see me because I don't want you to see me when I am like this. I hope you didn't see me hugging my driving teacher instead of you. I hope you didn't see me when I went to the bathroom and cried because you weren't there to share that moment with me.

I miss you, dad.

In three days I will be turning 18. This will be another milestone in my life. They say I'll become a man. I don't feel like I'm a man. I wish I could be a man. I wish I could hold my head up high and be strong like a man. But I am not. I'm broken, dad. I am. I need you in my life to teach me how to be a man.
You know, they are trying... Jürgen tries, Domi's dad tries, some people I look up to try. But they can't replace you. Why couldn't you show me how to shave? Why did mom have to teach me how to knot a tie?

These are milestones a son has to share with his dad. I'm sharing them with you... in spirit. That's all I have. But I need to know:

Are you proud of who I am?

Never make me sing this to you

I heard that you're settled down.
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regrets and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.


- I will love you for eternity, Domi -

the most important thing to me these days

Gratitude

My ISP (Internet Service Provider) is the same as my TV cable company.
I have already expressed how awesome I think my new internet is with the downspeed of 4MB/s (32mbit/s).

On Sunday mom and I were watching TV when I accidentally knocked off the digital receiver. I didn't break it but the sensor for the remote control inside the receiver must have been out of it's place because we had to go very close with the remote to be able to switch the channels.

So I called my ISP/TV cable provider who also provided the receiver on a Sunday and told them about the problem. They said that it is no problem and they are gonna replace it within the next few days.
I asked if he can be more specific and he said "well, since Monday is a bank holiday, the technical department will receive your order on Tuesday... so your order will be delivered on Thursday at the latest."
I said ok and thanked him and hung up.

Now it is Tuesday... yesterday was a bank holiday and I just got a text from my sister, who is at home and she wanted to know if I had ordered anything cause there is a guy at the door waiting.
So I replied and asked "is it a receiver?" and she texted "yeah" and then I texted "sign for it".

Then, during break I called home and talked to her and she said that the guy came in, unpacked the new receiver, packed the old one... plugged it in, programmed the smart card and set up everything.

I thought it was so awesome that I called the guys from Unity Media (on a free number btw). I said "you know, a lot of people call you and complain whenever they have a problem. I just want to let you know that I am impressed and I want to thank you for the super-fast delivery and everything."

He was silent for a second cause apparently no one does stuff like that... haha... he asked me for my account number and I told him and he said "thank you Mr. G. I will note that in the system. Thank you very much for your call... I'd like to thank you with a free on-demand-movie"...

I LOVE IT WHEN PEOPLE ARE NICE... it's like paying it forward... everyone is happy. everyone smiles...
there is GOOD in the world...

UNITYMEDIA... Go get it. You won't regret it.