Nov 7, 2008

Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back

I've heard this song about a year ago for the first time. I didn't get the concept back then, but now, I kinda understand where he's coming from.

The lyrics:
See I dont, know why, I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you,
now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain,
I wanna let u know that I feel

Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

9 comments:

Planetx_123 said...

I never heard this song. Wow- you are really hurt? Did something happen- did Joe say something?

I hope you feel better- its hard going through any kind of pain like this.

Steve

Nic said...

This video has nothing to do with Joe.

This is clearly addressed to someone called Hoe.

Planetx_123 said...

Ah- silly me. Ok - well did "Hoe" do something in particular or is this just your emotions after your decision to stop caring for "Hoe"?

I've now asked this question one way or another three or four times, with no answer. I'm not sure why I think you will answer this time :-)

Steve

Nic said...

You're a believer, I guess :o)
It should be rewarded. But first tell me why you are asking me this. WHat do you think Joe might have done? After that I'm gonna answer your question.

Planetx_123 said...
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Planetx_123 said...

For a couple of reasons:

(1) I am curious about Joe. I think he is interesting, but the Joe we see on YT is just a particular projection of what Joe wants to present. So this is not the real Joe, but his version of an idealized Joe. This may not differ much from the real Joe is if he isn't consciously doing this, but certainly he only shows what he wants to show. I would like to think that the funny, cool, caring, sometimes irritated Joe is the actual Joe, but maybe not. I don't know that I really care that much one way or the other. While I enjoy being a part of the Joe viewership, and I do check YT daily (unfortunately), I am not disillusioned in thinking that Joe is anything more than just a good YT vlogger to me. I mean I am certain that I will never meet Joe, and I don't know that I would want to-- but I enjoy the vlogs and getting to see a part of his life. I identify with a lot of the emotions that he seems to go through, because I experienced a lot of the same things as a teenager when I was in high school, and thats nostalgic for me. God I sound really old right now, but I'm only 25...thats not really that old... really! Joe doesn't really share that much in his vlogs anymore (maybe scared by the explosion of subscriptions of old men...which I hope I am not one of!).

(2) The vids and posts that you have made remind me of me when I had a crush on a guy in highschool and some college. I went through times when I was very obsessive, even when it was movie stars or people that I had no chance to ever meet. And I knew that it wasn't "real", but it made me feel so good to pretend. I had few people to talk to about being gay/bi. With you and Joe (or YT fame in general) its actually worse I think. When I would be obsessed with Leonardo DiCaprio (yea I know), there was never a chance that he would ever respond to me or know who I was. So my little notes and day dreams were always just mine. This made it easier when I decided to move on. For you, while Joe is a semi-YT celebrity (at least amongst his 3K viewers), you still get some feedback from him, which Im sure was really exciting for you. I think I know what you went through for those few weeks, and it probably was a lot of fun and made you feel really good. So if Joe did something or said something to upset you, I would like to know because I can only imagine how much that must've hurt. Now in Joe's defense- he is a 15 year old boy and has certainly his own share of problems and issues, and probably doesn't really know how to react to all of his viewers, and thats ok.

(3) I have been trying to connect with other people out here on this YT/Blogger community without much success. Sure I post a few comments, but clearly I am not interesting enough to actually get to know. This is not a slight against you in any way- dont take it like that if thats how it reads. And I probably should just stop, because most of the people are younger than me, and I understand that that is a bit creepy--even though I think I am one of the least creepy people.

Enough answers? Did you expect to get a billions lines of super-personal answers? :-)

Steve
(I posted this before but in proofreading changed something that made it read wrong)

Nic said...

ok Steve... err... didn't expect it to be a novel. But it's good you wrote that much. THis way I get to know you better.

As I said in an earlier comment this video is not about Joe.

I fell in love with him about two months ago. That was when I decided to make a video to let him know that I like him. The Joe I made that video for is not the same guy anymore.

I have noticed that he didn't smile once in his last video where he was introducing himself to his new subscribers.
So Joe has changed and I am very sorry. He got a lot of creepy stalkers who posted real bad stuff and that scared him. At least I think it scared him. Because it sure as hell would scare me.
...........

About being hurt: well... I'd lie if I say I am not hurt. Joe was the first guy I really fell in love with and he was the first person I said "I love you" to.
But from the first video I posted I was aware of the stupidity of the situation and I never ever wanted to overwhelm him or even make him react to the things I said. I knew I had to get over it and I eventually did... at least I keep telling that to myself these days, and I hope it'll happen very soon.

Joe was never mean to me. He never said one bad word to me. And I am not mad at him in a slightest bit. Why should I be? He didn't do anything wrong. It'S not his fault I fell in love with him... well.. yes it is... why does he have to be so awesome...
But yeah, seriously... he is a very nice guy. PERIOD. And I still have feelings for him... but those feelings are different now.
A lot of people assume that I had lots of contact with him because I posted all these videos and had this interaction going on with him and this PennyTheSecretary character. But this is not the case. I just didn't want to be one of these stalkers who bomb his inbox with tons of messages and bother him all the time.
What I had to tell him, I told him with my videos.
And I know for a fact that he watched every single one of them.
He mentioned me twice in his videos and he faved and featured some of my videos on his channels.
But that was all the contact the two of us had. Nothing more.

The way I see it is that this was a one-sided thing. At the end he didn't comment or react to any of the things I said at all. Which in hindsight was a very god thing and helped me a ot to get over him.

Hmmm... I don't know what more to say about all this anymore.

After all I went through emotionally I also gained a lot of things out of this whole thing.

It is a big satisfaction for me to see that there are people out there who actually have a soul and care.

While I wrote this comment I got an email bntification that someone posted a comment on my "10 things I hate about you" video. I am impressed and here is why:

>>>>>"catscratch721 (1 hour ago)

I haven't cried....really cried....in a long time. I cried today.

If I could hug you, I would. If I could kiss you, I would.

Thank you for a tender, sad, and wonderful vid"<<<<<

Need I say more?
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To sum it up: Joe is a very nice guy and has never said one bad thing to me and I'd never call him a hoe. So this video is not directed at him.

Anonymous said...

One does have to wonder about Joe sometimes. I sat back and watched you make those videos and many of his subscribers fell in love with them. I also noticed that he nither added you as a friend or subscbrie to your channel.

I commented earlier on one of your post. There is a lot of questions about Joe and why he does what he does? Maybe we'll never know all the anwsers and that might be a good thing.

I could just tell from watching your videos and reading your replys to comments that you are different then Joe, as Alex likes to say, "Joe has a you tube voice." maybe he also has a youtube personality.

His videos have changed and his popularity among the milkboy viewers are growing everyday. Joe is only 15 years old and with over 3000 viewers on his youtube and blogger account, it has to be mind blowing.

I would hope that someday soon Joe well wake up and become that happy go lucky 15 year old boy that made us all smile. Even if it mean's leaving youtube.

fanofgrendel said...

You seem on the right track, Nic. I think the whole episode has turned out to have been a good thing for you.