"craziest thing ever"... maybe

Nah... there are way crazier things in the world.
For a lot of people that little thing I did yesterday was crazy.
For me it was a necessity.

Domi has been in Bavaria with his family for what was supposed to be a 1,5 week vacation... but his dad decided to add another week to it. I missed him a lot and I was really upset. Especially in the evenings when I came home from my summer job and had time to ponder over stupid stuff...

It reached the point that on Saturday, one day before they were scheduled to come home I posted this on twitter:

I'm a total fucking loser. My friends want to hang out but I rather stay at home, hang around the internet being bored and mope about Domi
Sat Jul 31 2010 12:14:48 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

fucked up. I didn't use to be like that... I'm the current goddamn western state champion in basketball... look at me... fucking loser
Sat Jul 31 2010 12:16:23 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

So I spent my Saturday being at home, doing nothing. In the evening Domi called and said this to me:

Domi just called and we talked for almost an hour. He misses me. He said he wants to hug me for half an hour when he's back.
Sat Jul 31 2010 21:54:30 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

I couldn't sleep and thought a lot about almost everything. I went to bed at 2:30am and maybe subconsciously made a decision:

It was a beautiful Sunday morning when I decided to pack my rucksack with 5 bananas, 3 bottles of water and a few energy bars. I had a weird idea but wasn't sure if I should follow through. So I took my bike and let my legs do the thinking.

But let the tweets speak for themselves, shall we?

Call me an erratic fool. But I'm in a mcD about 35 km outside cologne. I came here by bike and I'm gonna go as far as I can towards bavaria
Sun Aug 01 2010 11:57:14 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

I already spoke with his dad. They're gonna pick me up on their way back from Bavaria.
Sun Aug 01 2010 11:58:20 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

Currently I'm going about 15 to 18 km an hour. By this rate I'll be in at least two different states
Sun Aug 01 2010 12:00:03 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

I drank 3 bottles of water/minerals mix so far and had 3 bananas and 1 cheeseburger
Sun Aug 01 2010 12:02:15 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

Wow, once you sit down and relax, your legs don't want to get up anymore.

Sun Aug 01 2010 12:03:09 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

My biggest concern is my iPod's battery. It is my only source of a map. Right now a nice lady allows me to use her laptop's USB port.
Sun Aug 01 2010 12:13:23 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

~~~ 2 hours later ~~~

I'm in Königswinter in a cafe waiting for a ferry boat to cross the Rhine. Then I will continue on the B9
Sun Aug 01 2010 14:29:59 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

a nice man in his 60s gave me his map of the region... it ends at the state border... but I still have a bit until I reach it
Sun Aug 01 2010 14:31:43 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

Here I am http://maps.google.de/maps?ll=50.665131,7.19965&spn=0.061041,0.143337&z=13&iwloc=13964904820822171281&lci=com.google.webcams
Sun Aug 01 2010 14:34:11 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

~~~ another 2 and half hours later ~~~

I've arrived in Weißenthurm http://maps.google.de/maps?ll=50.415136,7.458344&spn=0.030683,0.071669&z=14 I'm exhausted. I need to peeee
Sun Aug 01 2010 16:53:38 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

according to my bike computer my top speed was 32,8 km/h... my avg speed is 18,3 km/h. I am very very exhausted
Sun Aug 01 2010 16:56:12 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

I just called mom and told her where I am... she freaked out... I think I have to face consequences... fuck it...
Sun Aug 01 2010 16:57:51 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

fucking German laws... everywhere everything is closed cos it's Sunday... I can only get water and energy bars at gas stations... for double the price... and no bananas or fresh fruit... I ate about 10 bifi rolls so far... I'M EXHAUSTED... can someone call a TAXI? lol
Sun Aug 01 2010 17:03:55 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

a lot of my friends on twitter sent me awesome messages and they were very supportive and encouraging... thank you soooo much :o)

guys guys... thank you so much for your tweets... I can't answer them all... I gotta leave... and please don't worry... I'm fiiine and happy
Sun Aug 01 2010 17:11:34 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via web

~~~ another 2 hours later ~~~

I DID IIIIT. I'M IN KOBLENZ. Free wifi at BK. That last 11 km took me almost two hours
Sun Aug 01 2010 19:12:04 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

I need food. Having two king fries and a triple whopper. Brb
Sun Aug 01 2010 19:16:14 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

*buuuuurp* I'm full now. Ok I can't move a muscle. Seriously. They're hard like stone. I feel like I weigh twice as much. Will sit back, call Domi and try to close my eyes if that's ok with you. Thank you so much for supporting me and rooting for me. You guys are pure love. I haven't completely realized it yet. 104.6 km. That's insane. Never done anything like this before.
Sun Aug 01 2010 19:37:36 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

Thank you so much for all the nice tweets. I'll get back to you asap. Now some rest. Oh, one more thing. Ouch ouch ouch ouch ouuuuuuch
Sun Aug 01 2010 19:38:45 (Central Europe Daylight Time) via Twitter for iPhone

Eventually, with a delay of 40 minutes they arrived in Koblenz and picked me up.
We almost never kiss or hold hands in front of his dad... I don't know why, maybe because we don't want to overload him with the gay thing... he still has a hard time with the fact that his "straight" son is in a gay relationship. But he is very very silent about that... he tries his best. He is a good person.

Anyways... Domi didn't care... he gave me one of the best hugs ever... And I don't know if it was my exhausted legs or relief that we are united again or love or whatever... but... at that moment I felt zero gravity... I couldn't move because every muscle in my body hurt and was as heavy as a rock... but at that moment in his arms... *sigh* I LOVE YOU.

His mom immediately called my mom and told her they've picked me up.
I sat in the back while Domi and his dad towed my bike to this transporting thing on the back... Domi sat next to me and held my hand (another thing we don't do in front of his dad).
They kept talking to me and asking me all kind of questions.
While his mom was interested in what I was thinking to have done "such a sweet thing", his dad asked me about the road and the stops I made and "technical stuff"...
At one point he asked me if I had the right amount of air in the tires, cos it is important...

After about 20 minutes I leaned over and rested my head on Domi's lap and closed my eyes while he was stroking my hair...

I don't know if I can make you understand how important this moment was for me.
One family... no holding back... total contentedness... a feeling of... I don't know... a big reward after 10 hours... and after waiting for 2 and half weeks... HEAVEN!!!

We arrived home shortly after 10pm... Domi helped me inside and mom didn't say much... I quickly tweeted "Home. Dead. Bed" and fell asleep.

Only to wake up with a lot of pain two hours later...but yeah... worth it.

footprints in my heart

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."

Dear responsible adult person,

you have become an important person in my life. I think I might have mentioned on more than one occasion that I look up to you. I have almost 15,000 tweets and you're by far the person I tweet to most. Your friendship, generosity, kindness and warmth have led me to allow you a place in my heart.

Whether you want it or not, you have an impact on me. Your actions have an impact on me.

I'm sure you had a very good reason to do what you've done.

But please... please don't make the mistake of thinking it doesn't affect anybody else but you.

that being said, here's something I recorded last Wednesday and I might or might not have thought about or mentioned you... http://sexytimewithnic.tumblr.com/

egomaniac

ca®Lo: nic this is why i lurve you!
Nic: this? what this?
Shern: oh no! you've boosted his ego!
Nic: lol
Peter: great
Nic: lol
VBoy: nooooooo
Lloydie!: u cant boost up nics ego!
Nic: loool
VBoy: how could u
[Lloydie!: nics ego is already at the peak
Nic: it is not
Peter: his head will explode if it gets any bigger
Lloydie!: its to the point that hes given it a name
Nic: sometimes I think you guys take me for granted
Lloydie!: (rofl)
VBoy: wow :O how big can it get?
VBoy: thought mount everest is the biggest?
Lloydie!: XD
Lloydie!: nic we love u
Lloydie!: were just kidding
VBoy: up the butt
Nic: *sniff* re, re, really?
Lloydie!: yes
Lloydie!: now bend over!
Lloydie!: XD
Nic: FU
VBoy: :D

My summer job

As I'm typing this I'm making kaching...
I decided to go for a summer job since I need to earn money for my driver's licence and a new car.
Mom told me immediately that I can forget about working at the agency because they have a shitload of work to do and I would be in the way. thanks mommy... :p but she was kind enough to call her friend from another agency and get me a job there.

today is my first day and it has been good so far.
Domi surprised me at lunch and we went to BK cos there was nothing better there.
Today I earned 48 Euro... that's almost two driving lessons.

btw... it tool me 3 attempts to write this blog because I had so much to do.
I'm home now.

Paying it forward

Dear Noc,

I truly want to say how awesome you are! You are sweet! Kind! And just a plain great guy! You never try and give up on someone and you forgive their mistakes! You know how to joke and we all envy you and Domi! Your blog was one of the highlights of my blog reading! I want to thank you for not only introducing me to SO MANY awesome people but also you were one of the reasons I started blogging! Nic you sent a tweet saying, “Dear strangers, don’t stay unknown!” and my twitter name was mentioned in that tweet! Your tweet was one of the small inspirations to start blogging; I became known! Thank you Nic for being awesome and always staying cool when I made a bad joke! You are lucky and you are kind and you are so forgiving!

Robert

Source: http://lrtackle15.blogspot.com/2010/07/finally-posting.html

<3 Rib

bliss

a few days ago I wrote a post called "Arguable". Apparently he read it. Because about half an hour ago he asked me over to his house to play this to me...

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He had to play it 2 more times :o)

Seventeen years

To my dear friend Dominik

Seventeen years of your existence on this world. Five of them in my heart. One of them as my heart.

For seventeen years you bring happiness to all the people around you by just smiling at them.

For Seventeen years the world has been a better place just because you are there. Maybe not 6 billion people's world, but our world. We, your family and your friends, we are blessed to have your smartness, your love and your kind soul around us. Your ability to sense people's moods and don't look away is god's gift to us. You don't look away, you take your time and talk to them and always, always make them feel better. 

'Love' is being used too loosely these days.. "I love spaghetti, I love Michael Jackson, I love my new shoes"... I say that word a lot. To say I love you is an understatement times 10. 

You make my life so much better. My heart beats faster whenever I think of you. And whenever I think of you, your smile is the first thing I see. It doesn't only represent your beauty but also the beauty of your soul.

You make me happy. 

To my angel and my boyfriend Dominik

You took me under your wings when I came to Germany almost 6 years ago. You've been there for me, protected me, laughed with me... even laughed at me :)

you've cried with me, you've comforted me and you've held me.

your touch, your shoulder, your words have always lifted me up and made me happy again.

Little over a year ago I would have never expected us to be together as lovers.

I slowly begin to realize how much the two of us were meant to be together.

All the things you have done for me have been selfless and show your endless love.

I can only hope I get the chance for many years to show you how much I love you.

(paused to think)

See, I know what you are doing right when you read this. You're smiling and you think this is a corny love letter. 

And yes, oh yes it is... I post it in here to show everyone else who hasn't had the fortune to meet you in person what you mean to me.. 

To my brother, my flesh and blood Dominik

you are a part of my family. IF, IF, and I say it again IF we ever part ways, my love won't change for you. You are and you always will be a part of my life. Thank you for being my friend, my lover and my brother. Thank you for being.

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Dominik expected a "surprise" party for his birthday. He expected it for the coming weekend. But he snooped around a bit and found out that a few of our friends are gonna leave on Friday afternoon for vacation with their families (school vacation starts on Friday in our school). 

So he told me very proudly that he has found out that we plan the party on his birthday... which is today...

I told him to act surprised and not ruin it for his friends.

Of course I lied to him. What he didn't expect was the invasion to his bedroom last night at midnight.

We were 18 friends who got together at quarter to 12 at my house. everyone was on time :) 

then we walked to Domi's house.

His mom knew everything about it. She told us that we can party from 12 to 1 (cause it's a school night) in their party room in the basement. She even ordered food from a caterer so Domi wouldn't be suspicious about her cooking. It was so funny to have her on my side for a secret operation. She sent me a txt message when the caterer arrived. That was so sweet, she hates "that modern technology stuff" (cell phones, lol). It must have taken her a long time to txt me "ESSEN IST DA ALLES IN ORDnung" ("FOOD IS HERE EVERYTHING IS FIne").

When we arrived at Domi's house I could log in to his wifi and tweeted that we are about to enter his house. That was risky, he could have been online. But fortunately he was in bed already. But he wasn't asleep. He was watching TV when I knocked at his door. He said "ja bitte" ("yes please"). lol, what a polite bf I have.

We all opened the door fast and flooded his room and sang happy birthday. Well, we sang HÄPPIE BÖRSDAY,... 

The look on his face was priceless. He was totally red in the face... he jumped up but quickly went back under the covers... he was blushing... maybe embarrassed cause he was in his pjs :)

then his mom came in and hugged him and said happy birthday. His dad said "happy birthday, son" and put a manly hand on his shoulder... lol... then we all ran down two floors to the basement while we gave Domi time to get dressed.

His mom has been awesome... she had decorated the room and had put up the food all in silence so Domi wouldn't find out. It was a big surprise to him when he came down. 

We played music and partied until 2am... his parents had to throw us out. His dad actually came in and pulled the plug to the stereo :P

Oh, I won't tell you what I got him yet, cause he hasn't gotten all of his presents from me yet, but I've shown him one thing already that my friend KS has found and I've ordered it already.

So here it is, I wonder if you all will get it. Domi is already in love with it...

:o)